I GOTTA FEELING

Everything returned!! Return to formerly. I will sleep at midnight and wake up at 11am morning. I don’t want this feeling. It’s bored! I want my life fill with my best friends and those musicians can let me strive. I really feel that life is nothing without my best friends, music and my family members. I love all of them.

But now my life sucks!! Everyone start doing their stuffs. Khai Yik working now and no one will make me joy and it’s extremely boring. Another hope going Australia, previously when I online I still can wait for Zhe Rou to chat, but now no more. Phone also didn’t bring along with me. I gotta feeling. Feel that I’m going to lost a best friend again. Not because the distance but because of the distance from heart. I don’t know will that heart will feel that or not. But I really afraid about that. It’s not easy to find a best friend that really I care. Hope no one bully Khai Yik and he can become slim. Hope Zhe Rou’s hostel very clean and don’t have cockroach and wont forget me this best friend. I really gotta feeling, hope my sixth sense not correct.

Now no more reasons for me to online and bring along my phone. I can concentrate to do the things I should do. But every time I will try online and survey how are them. Hope they know how my feel and give me some encourage to make me do my things better, include my instruments practice. I really need your encourages. I’ll try to done my jobs without rely on anyone include arrange my time myself.

Recently my students seem weird. I feel that they start to rebel against or maybe already grow up and have their way of thinks. If they also not rely me that’s good for them and I will be glad if them stronger than me. I wont ask them to hear to me every time. They also need to grow up.

I needa start practice soon, cannot be lazy, if not I will not improve and will disqualified from music road. I just can try my best, and cant expect too much, I admit that I’m a lazy guy. I heard that 群能补拙…But how if I have the talent if I lazy?? Must bad too.. So I must hardworking lur.. sigh

Already finish vent, need to learn how to hardworking now. Must fill my time with practice, practice and practice. Bye..

I MISS YOU

最近感觉到心里很空，是不是太忙了？（如果忙，我还会在这边写blog?）

可能凯毅不在我身边，一切感到不自在。

可能子柔要去读书了，心里真不是滋味。

我没心情到连钢琴都懒得练了，我是不是傻了？

一直在浪费时间，耽误自己的前途。

我太太太懒惰了，有没有药能治好？

还是有什么事情，什么人能帮我？

最后还是只有我自己。我真恨我自己！！

但最近就比较长练习我的小喇叭，

毕竟它才是我的前途的关键。

练习鼓的时间也慢慢消失了，

不懂还能不能打败我乐队的每个人。

但上次有一位percussion教练想要我当他的助手,

我真的感到很高兴，至少还有人要我。

肯定了我付出后得到的成果。

凯毅子柔，我真的好想你们啊，

我想要发泄,你们却不能帮我了。

还有HKone的朋友，不知你们怎么了。

你们不在了我都好不习惯啊！！

嗨。。还是一样，心里还是很空。

好想让人关心，让我关心的人关心。

好想练好水准，让关心我的人骄傲。

但现在我做不到，给我一点时间。

嗨。。又在浪费时间了。

又要让别人失望了。

对不起啊 T.T

All those people in My heart..

Erm.. Today I went for body check with my mom, I feel that my mom not really healthy. She got a lot of pressure and make her unhealthy. I feel so sad when saw her high blood pressure higher than before. She worry for a lot of things. She worry about his sis,her mom,her children and his husband. A lot of things to worry,I wanna help,but I cant. Hope I can grow up faster can help her.

Today my dad mad about his worker. He really mad today, If I'm the boss,i will fire the useless worker. But my dad is a kind guy, he gave the worker many chance and my dad know that he still have his family. I'm free this year and I'll discuss with them and might help them(include my mom)soon..

Yesterday I went buttorworth, but I cant find Khai Yik, so sad he cant come find me. S miss him and I mentioned about him 3 times in front my friend. Hope can meet him soon and have a good chat with him. Some people said i'm a gay again...lol

Today my mom fetched me went practice, I mentioned about Zhe Rou for 3 times too.. I said she's a tiny and refined girl who learn karate. I said she's a good president who tuning for her members and more... Hope she will in right mood soon. But no need to misunderstand la, I just treat my best friends better than other people.

My sister asked me whether she can lend my ladtop to watch movie or not. I declined and feel quite guilty,cause I'm not using ladtop that time. My brother argued with my youngest sis before sleep, my brother cried and I warned them not to produce any sound. Tomorrow I'm free and my siblings all in home, I might ask them to take breakfast together.

Last,wanna pray to god again. Just the same wish, hope all the peoples I care can live happily and healthy everyday. Last time I prayed everyday but sometime my wish didn't come true. Now hearing 'fall for you' song and recall someone. Erm..Anyway,hope she happy everyday too.

Best friends,I miss you..

I'm pity recently,

both of my best friends seem far away from me.
D major is in Butterworth and D minor is in Tambun Indah.
I can go find you all,but you all wanna find me or not??
Miss you all leh T.T Miss the time I spent with you two..

D major go Buttorworth work and
the time we meet will become less a lot.
He go so far and I don't know what should I do when i'm boring
and what can I do when i miss him.
He still got his gf to care about him,
he must miss his gf more than me.
Don't know how bout his work there?? Is it his work toilsome??
Will him bully by uncle aunty??
If have,tell me and I will complain till them very cham
and i will scratch their car.Sigh..faster come back T.T

D minor now didn't reply my message and didn't answer me call,
maybe still and sad mood cause I told her about her ex,
what her ex thinking about her.A big Sigh...
I should not tell her and I very scare I'll lost a best friend.
Maybe she angry me say that to her
and want to forget about me from her life.
This is my opinion and I hope I'm wrong,
i don't want to lost her in my life.
Hope she can tell me something that I can help,
If you need to vent or cry I can comfort you,
If you angry me,just scold me and don't ignore me T.T
I will feel very guilty and sad..

If you see this,please help me tell them I miss them,
but very paiseh cause I didnt write I miss you..
God please help me to bless them^^

Ipoh trip...

Happy New Year!!2010 year already start..I still didn’t do all the things I need to do. My 2009 year wishes still didn’t come true. 2009 year is a year I miss the most, cause I found many good stuff, I learnt a lot of things and met some people who change my life a lot.

8 days before 2010 year, I went Ipoh, at there I get happiness and sadness. I went there was for celebrate Christmas, find Janice, the people I never contact for long time and find Zhe Rou, my best friend before she go Australia.

8 days ago, I went Ipoh by bus. I start my journey at 9 o’clock. At first I thought I will go there with 3 of my friends, And I bought 4 tickets. But one of them cant attend suddenly. So I just ignore the ticket and put our bags on the seat. The bus conductor asked us: “Tempat ini siapa duduk?” And I answered: “ Saya beli tempat ini untuk letak beg.” Then he just shocked and walked away.

About 1.30pm I reached ipoh and I wait Zhe Rou to fetch me at McDonalds. I queued up and bought some burger cause both my friends feel hungry. Suddenly Zhe Rou phone me and tell me she already reached. Then we just took away those burgers. On the car, I introduce Nai Chong to Zhe Rou and Nai Chong seem excited and happy. After that we straight go to Jusco.

I waited Michelle at there more than one an hours and all my friends seem very boring and wanna go home. But I kept asked them to wait to see my angel. I asked Michelle to meet us at coffee bean. A few minutes later, Janice reached and she bought her friends too. One guy and one girl T.T It’s hurt when I know she’s ignoring me and keep talking with her friends. But after that, I just go back with Zhe Rou with a sad mood.

Zhe Rou’s house is really big but the point is her house are really clean and tidy, feel so good at there.(except the sofa in front the television on the second floor, cause Zhe Rou watched movie there and that place was untidy =p ) After that I received Michelle’s message that she cant celebrate Christmas with me already. I feel my heart like stepping by a group of elephants, this feel was not because of her, was because of Janice, cause if I cant celebrate with Michelle, that mean I cant celebrate with Janice too. But I actually can guess that when I saw Janice, cause Michelle’s plan seem not good. Sigh..

Khai Yik, Nai chong planed to watch movie and Zhe Rou already invited by her friends to watch movie. They invited me and at last I agree to follow them.

Before watch movie, we went a place to take our dinner. After we took our dinner, I met Tommy taking dinner with his parents. He smiled with me. After that we went Jusco and watch our movie.I watched the assassin and body guard’s movie. It’s nice but the place was very cool. Khai Yik passed his jacket to me and I feel touched =p After that I saw Zhe Rou came into our room and she said she and her friends went the wrong room. We watched the movie till midnight and we wished each other Merry Christmas in a dark place.After that we go home and take a good rest. I cant sleep a whole night, I keep turning left and right on the bed about one an hour just can sleep. Maybe I recall about the sad stuff. Luckily two of my best friends beside me and keep comfort me.

The next day, I woke up early in the morning and took a bath, I never woke up so early before. Sigh, I knew that I still sad. Then I just realize that Zhe Rou also didn’t sleep for the whole night, because of her friend texted her at about 2am. We went Kelly Castle and San Bao Cave. It was hard to find this two places. We took about 40 minute to find Kelly Castle and we cross the same place three times to find San Bao Cave. But at last we found it.We took some photo there. I enjoyed there and hardly try to forget the bad happened. I’m happy there, joined my best friends happily. After that we went Old Town Café and took our brunch there. Nai Chong used his menu to kacau Zhe Rou but Zhe Rou didn’t realize that. He was really brave.

After that we ready to go back to Perlis already. Zhe Rou fetched us to bus stop and accompany us waiting for the bus. After the bus opened the door, I accompany Zhe Rou back to her car and I made a embarrassed decision. Jeez!! But I really enjoy this trip although I cant celebrate Christmas with Janice, but two of my best friends fully enough to make me happy and forget about sadness. I hope I still have a chance to go again. Thanks to two of my best friends, Khai Yik and Zhe Rou , and I wont forget to thanks Nai Chong who accompany me go Ipoh although he sick. Best friends, I’ll miss you all and wont forget you all forever. And you two also cannot forget me easily, I will mad.

P.S. Zhe Rou’s parents look very young and her mom very pretty although didn’t make up. I want to call her mom elder sister but I scared her dad will beat me, Zhe Rou also know karate, later she jealous or she mind and chop me into two pieces =)

Music,my future

At last I chosen my future..

My mum agreed that.

It’s the one I love and I want..

It’s {MUSIC}

Actually I can choose my dad’s factory.

Just be a mini boss,

Simply pass my life

Without worry for everything.

Many people admire that I’m rich.

My dad already old,

Nearly 50 years old.

The factory is his painstaking care,

He fight for 17 years for the factory.

But I’m feel so sorry to him.

I can handle his factory,

But I don’t like it.

Luckily I have nice parents.

They let me choose my future for myself.

My mum said dad still can care and

Support me for many years.

If I can’t handle my future or

I feel tired, that’s the last way for me.

I feel so touch.

I love my MUM and DAD.

If i still can study music,

I must work hard..

Although it’s hard for my standard now,

But nothing is impossible!!

Everyone, pray for me…

I must let my parents glad of me

And I hope can let them have a better life.

Gambateh!!

+*Predestined+*

I already stop texting you every night
After your birthday.
I so afraid you will forget me one day.
I already promised you.
I don’t have other way to contact you,
And make you reply me.
Hope one day your mind
will recall some memory about me.
Hope that the bear and the chain will help.
But I did something that will make me
Won’t regret for whole life.
I said ‘I Love You’!!
But recently will start feel
Sad and mood become weird.
Maybe I miss you again.
Hope one day can meet you again..
Depend on our predestined.
Won’t force it again.

Janice,I Love You..

愛しています

好久没开部落格了。
这次用华语了哦…
‘月亮代表我的心’这首歌，
也好久没听到了。
每当我看到我电话的主题时，
我已经很肯定我又在想你了。。
我每天都想念你。
怀念你可爱又迷人的笑容。
不知你过得好吗？
不知你有想我吗？
还是你已把我忘了呢？
希望你还记得我是谁。
我真的很想你了。
最近在梦里又遇见了你。
常常在梦里开心的我，
醒来后才发现是一场梦，
多么希望永远不要醒来，
多么希望我可以永远沉睡。
但这些都是不实际的想法。
我只希望耶稣
每晚都听到我的祷告，
帮我实现我的愿望。

Plus some japanese words,hehe^^
あなたがいなくて寂しいです
愛しています

Concert Diraja Perlis 2009^^

Heart beat will become fast,

Ear will turn very very red,

Shy till cannot talk one word,

Laughing loudly like mad,

Smiling without any reason,

Shouting to let off like mad,

Frame of mind will turn happy.

There’re the effects when I saw her.

So Shame!!

Never regret that I had joined this camp.

I think if you didn’t ask me to join, I wont join it.

I knew some new friends that gave me some memory..

Zhe Rou +Min Whui +Michelle +Lavender +

Ivy +Kristagail + Jackey + Yee Ran + Chin Loong

And also Janice.Thanks a lot!

Gosh! Miss them again.

Hope them miss me too.

The happiest things were,

I talked with my angel,

I ate with her together,

I take some photo with her.

I saw her laughing happily,

I saw her playing piano,

I saw her sleeping pose. HAHA

Wah!! Exactly cute =]

Actually my phone theme not the pink one,

I'm not so pinky like girl.

I change it,

Because I don't want let you know,

I use your picture to create a theme.

And set it as my theme.

This camp, I no more emo.

Shocked right?? That’s me.

The real me!

Recognize and know me from beginning.

Hi everyone, I’m Tay Tun Lian

Nice to meet you.

Waiting for My Happiness

YeeHa!!So happy!!!
Because I can say good night to you everyday.
You almost didn’t reply me,
but I hope that you had seen what I had sent for you.
At least you know that what I’m thinking,
what I’m doing,
what I want so say with you.
That’s enough for me.

But recently you reply my message.
It make my heart live again.
The beating of my heart sometime can reach Allegro tempo.
My ear and face will turn into tomato’s red when I’m thinking of you.
It’s wonderful and I like it!!

I still keeping the message you sent for me before.
You want me delete your message.
But I cannot bear to delete it, it had many memory for me. Unforgettable!!
I scared you become like now, seldom reply my message.
At least now I know that, I doesn’t wrong.
Maybe you’re busy, maybe I’m disgusting.
I didn’t angry you, I didn’t hate you.
I just hope that we can like before,
you keep reply me good night before you sleep.
Hope you reply my message
not because you feel I'm pity.
I don’t mind to waiting for you.
This is the only thing I can do for you.
Just because +*,사랑해요...행복을 빌게
Hope god bless me.
Let my dream become true.


[在这个世界上，只有真正快乐的男人，才能带给女人真正的快乐]
[In this world, only those men who really feel happy can give women happiness]
So I’m trying to be happy!! I can and must do it, just because of you!!

+*DREAM+*

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
There must be an angel with a smile on her face,
When she thought up that I should be with you.

But it's time to face the truth,
I will never be with you.

I saw you texting with guys but, not me
I saw you chatting with guys but, not me
I saw you smiling with guys but, not me
Have guys who make you happy but, not me
Have guys make u always reply him but, not me
Have guys can snap photo with you but, not me
You like to snap photo but, not with me
You looking for a guy but, he’s not me
You hope to have a boy friend but that person will never be me

The guy who worried you when you are tired, is me
The guy who worried you when you are sick, is me
The guy who most hope you will reply his message, that's me
The guy who most care about your mood, it's me
The guy who most love and care about you, is me
The guy who willing to change himself cause of you, is me
The guy who learnt korea language because of you, is me
The guy who willing sacrifice himself cause you, is me
The guy who will lend his shoulder for you to sleep, is me
The guy who will let you to vent your indignation , is me
The guy who will let you to vent your sadness, is me
The guy whose heart will ache when seeing you crying, is me
The guy who will be happy when seeing you smile, is me
The guy who is willing to accompany till have to burn midnight oil and that's me
The guy who will always forgive you no matter what happend ,is me
The guy who will always be waiting for you, is me
The guy who will always love and protect you, is me
The guy you will agree him be your boy friend, is me
But this dream will only and always be a dream

Ever since I knew you, the feeling I towards you are getting stronger.
I think I must be in love with you. You must feel that,
because a stranger who don’t know me
also know my feeling I toward you. I can't hide my love toward you.
Hope one day you say to me You'll let me hold your hand.
Hope one day you say to me You'll let me be your man.
I will always be waiting for you, for a miracle to happen.
Just because +*,사랑해요...행복을 빌게