Just the way you are

Yesterday was a sad day.
I went out with jack,owen,lai,lim and hwei.
We went queensbay for movie.
I asked owen to drive my car,
and I was sitting at passenger seat.
Hwei was sitting beside me,
and I felt very happy.
It's true.
It was the 1st time I so close to her.

After fetched all of them,
we went queensbay and bought the movie tickets
They asked me to sit beside Hwei.
Can seen that she wasn't happy to sit with me.
I felt quite sad.
I tried to talk to her,
but just like get ignored,
or like doesn't want to reply or what.
It made me feel more sad.

After the movie,
we all went home.
I got a bad news,from lai.
She said Hwei doesn't like me.
She doesn't like guy do many things to 'fan' her.
She posted 'wa bo suka' at twitter.
But I didnt do any special things.lolz..
But how?I can't do anything.
Just sad..

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Birthday Song- a special birthday present for her.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zAnh8twmTF0

This song is meaningful,
so I love this song,
it's like my feeling towards her.
But......sigh


Her eyes, her eyes
make the stars look like they're not shining
(But I just can look it from my car mirror)
Her hair, her hair
falls perfectly without her trying
(But I can't even touch it)
She's so beautiful
And I tell her everyday
(If I can tell)

I know, I know
When I compliment her she won't believe me
(I get ignored)
And it's so, it's so
Sad to think that she don't see what I see
(Yea..very sad)
But every time she asks me "Do I look okay?"
I say

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
'Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile
The whole world stops and stares for a while
(especially me,I can stare for very long time)
'Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

Her lips, her lips
I could kiss them all day if she'd let me
(Can,while I'm dreaming)
Her laugh, her laugh
she hates but I think it's so sexy
(sexy,cute,pretty and charming)
She's so beautiful
And I tell her everyday
(If I can tell)

Oh you know, you know, you know
I'd never ask you to change
(hmmm,except ask you to be my gf?)
If perfect's what you're searching for
Then just stay the same
So don't even bother asking if you look okay
'Cause you know I'll say
(you're beautiful,but can you be my lover?)

My Happyday,Jack's Birthday

Wooho,Jack's birthday was awesome!!
One day before his birthday,
it was about 6pm,I decided to follow ah lai out to fetch jack from jetty at 9pm.
I asked Owen but he was playing mahjong with friends.
He ignored me and I felt very angry that time.
Maybe I felt tired or maybe I cared about jack's feeling.
After that,I fetched me and I follow ah lai to Straigh Quay to meet Harientha.
Chin Hwei was on ah lai's car too.
But I didn't talk much,feel shy..LOL
They argue for fun and she was so playful.
And cute.

After that,we reached Straigh Quay and Harientha waited them for 90 minutes.
They went delicious while I was walking around the area.
Because I don't want to disturb them.
Then about 11pm, ah lai and me bought a tiny tiramisu cake from delicious
and we go and fetch jack.
We means me,ah lai and chin hwei =)

After jack get into the car,
we brought him go Jiao Sai (an idian mamak,that selling maggie mee)
We ordered 4 maggie mee,then just realize Chin Hwei doesn't like spicy.
Her face turn red and she always put her tongue of her mouth.
Wow,don't know how to describe it.
Then,we sang a birthday song in ah lai's car
after we brought a lighter to light up the candle.LOL..

Then we go back and sleep!!

The next day after we woke up,
we went>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>(fast forward)

I bring her up from my apartment,
playing cs in infinity and she sat beside me,
go her house to play uno cards.
There were all nice and sweet memories for me!!!

All the things I want!!

These are all the things I want,
and I wanna know that when can I get all these things.

1.Perlis sambai rice
2.Perlis lemak laksa
3.Perlis nasi kandar
4.Perlis Hai Tian seafood
5.Buffet
6.New wallet
7.New t-shirt
8.New shoes
9.New jeans
10.New hairstyle
11.InnovativePercussion drumsticks
12.Tenor drumpad
13.Music keyboard
14.Asus N43SL Jay Chou Special Edition
15.A good result for final[lazy to study] =p
16.Holidays
17.Music/Band
18.Wooi Music company
19.A new car??
520.soul mate

Arghhh...I'll keep waiting and try my best to get all the things I want!!!!
Gambateh!!!!

I'm in love AGAIN

It keep in my heart for quite long time.
I need to vent it out or I'll die.LOL..

Can't deny that love is sweet.
I desire a sweet love.
I very envy my friends those are in relationship.
Khai yik is in love,
Jack, Owen and Cason
they all are in love.
But I've been single for 3 years,
and my 1st love was my previous love.
Because I don't want same like some of my friends,
they have conflict between each other,
they argue, they cry, they blame.
I don't want my love become like that.
I'm waiting for a girl which suit me.
Except my 1st love,
I just fell in love with one girl,
and fell in love with her at the first sight.
But,actually I knew we are impossible.
I unrequited love her for 3 years without doing anything.
Now,I think it's time for me to look for another one.

Recently because of my friend,
I know a girl that with a very nice smile.
I can never resist her smile,
and I can't stop looking at her.
WTH!! She's really beautiful!!!
Can I in a relationship with her??!!
Of course I know it's hard.
Someone asked me don't fall too deep for her,
cause she scares I'll disappointed.
LOL!!A good encouragement.
Although I know it's for my own good.
But it made me quite sad.
Sigh, are there any specialist in love?
I need some help.
Hmmm..Should I try my 1st step??
What should I do?
Who can help me?
I afraid of failure,
But fear of failure is the greatest obstacle success!
So I think I'll try
no matter it will success of fail.
At least I tried...
Maybe start with a very very small step.
I need your support!!!
Hey girl, please DON'T fall in love with other people please~

Coach

I went Kedah Indoor Stadium to watch Marching Band Competition today.
I almost late cause I wanna wait my sister to cut her hair.
But this time, Sir Yong just calls me once to tell me I gonna late.
Normally, he will call me for few times and Sir Lai too.

I'm still in a very happy mood when I arrived the stadium.
But when I get inside the stadium, I saw them,
Sir Tang, Sir Lai, Sir Yong and the new staff Aaron.
They were wearing the Mulan's theme shirt that time
while I wore purple shirts, it mean the colour of Asma's supporter.
That time I feel that, I'm not important in the company anymore.
Sir Tang asked the new staff to sit beside him.
He seem to close and so care about the new staff.
That time I feel that I'm just a supporter,
and they are the real coaches.
I'm jealous, jealous with the new staff.

The show started.
I concentrated with the show but at the same time,
I can't control my mindto think about the new staff.
I'M REALLY JEALOUS WITH HIM!!!
I hope I'm him,who sits beside Sir Tang,
who stays with all the other coaches.
I can't be like him because I'm not a real coach.
I'm studying... Study the course I don't really like!!
I don't have the chance to learn with him.

Lastly, Asma won!!
I taught their percussion before.
Lol...It was BEFORE!!
Although their members still call me as their coach,
But now it's not related to me anymore.
They took a lot of photos after they won.
Usually coaches will ask me to take together.
But this time, no one asking me.
I smiling, but my heart bleeding.
So, I leaved earlier..

I love music and marching band
and everyone knows that..
Since I become a conductor,
my ambition is to be a Marching Band coach.
I thought I can achieve it last year.
But all of the sudden, my parents ask me to study.
I've no choice. So I chosen study business to help my dad.
I know it can earn a lot of money, but I don't really like it.
But if I be a coach,
how long time I need to give a good life to my parents
like what they gave me??

I never blame on them,
because I chose to study,I know knowledge is important.
But 2 years is too long for me.
I can learn and discover a lot of new things in two years.
Same to the new staff..
Although he never play percussion,
but if he work hard and practice hard.
He'll replace me in two years time or maybe lesser.
I just dont want to replace by him,
cause I love band and it's my ambition.
But I swear that, I'll not give up easily.
I'll keep challenge and improve to achieve my dream!
I hope, I'm not alone....
Gambateh~~~~~

College Life

It had been a long time I didn't update my blog.
Kinda miss all the things that I wrote in this blog.
It remind me what do I think and else.
Few months ago, I feel wanna blogging again,
cause I wanna write all my feelings, my memories no matter good or bad here.

I came to Inti College Penang few months ago.
I knew many new friends here like
Jack, Owen, Cason,
Kah Meng, Zhong Hao, Hao Jun,
Ah Lai, Ah Lim, MayChee,
Lee Xiang,Maxx,Ryan,
Alvin, Wei Loon, Yi Hauw and many many more.
I got a lot of nickname here,
ah duck, qigo pek, duck ko and else.
Although just 6 months I study in Inti,
but I got a lot of nice memories.
Like they said I have crush on few girls like
BMW, BEW, Joee and ChinHwei.
OMG!!I'm loyal k??
Just pretend qiko to let you all happy.
But I know you all were kidding with me.
We went hao jun's durian farm,
I fell down and injured my face and knees,
it was damn pain =(
Beside that still got a lot like
kl trip, Genting, Sunway Lagoon, Batu Ferringi,
Gurney, Straight Quay, Queensbay,Maychee's house,
Ah Lai's birthday at paradise hotel and many more.
Wow, I love my friends and I know my friends do love me too.


Hmmm,although there are a lot of good memories,
but there are also some bad memories like conflict.
Hehe, I don't want to write about the bad memories.
But one thing that I very sure is
I CHANGED!!
I don't know whether it's good or bad.
But sometimes I feel bad.
Because while I was teaching Marching Band during last year,
I was a man who plan very well,
I was a man who have high self esteem.
I was a man who seldom talk,
I was a man who very serious,
I was a man who quite cold blooded,
I was a man who very very loves music.
But now I become
A boy who lazy or seldom to plan,
A boy who always make people bullies,
A boy who always crap or talk nonsense,
A boy who very talkative and talk non stop,
A boy who very Guai Lan,
A boy who cares about his friends,
A boy who still loves music.
You know what??I become a boy that what I was
when my best friend was beside me.
I love it!!!I become a boy because I feel friends!
I'm not alone!!But sometimes I really over already.
I talk too much, seldom planning, and lazy.
I hope I still can hang out with my friend happily.
Laugh loudly, throw tissue paper while driving,
Open the car window widely and blast the rock music till the max volume.
I know and sure that, I love my friends.
But I'm 'summoning the positive me'.
Just don't wanna to trouble my friends.Wow..I wrote a lot!!
But haven't finish yet.
Sigh...TO BE CONTINUE

～心声～ 不是新生哦！！

哇！好久没有写部落格了。因为我懒惰写，有时也没有很特别的事情让我写。今天我会用华语来写。而今天要写的呢，就是我近来的生活，以及我的感受。哈哈，请大家一起带的心情读完它吧。

·第一个要写的当然是我的家人啦。嘻嘻！平常都写朋友，今天就把家人排在第一。今天刚骂了我最小的妹妹，因为没把我买给她的参考书做完。骂过后，还是一样没做完，挺生气的。昨天提早帮妈妈庆祝母亲节，因为今天妹妹就要去吉打了，不能一起庆祝。妹妹选了蛋糕后，问了我一个很白痴的问题： “等下拿蛋糕出来时要唱什么歌？生日歌？”我当然说:“笨蛋！又不是生日，唱什么生日歌？”过后兄弟姐妹（刚刚好就是我，大妹，弟弟和小妹^^）就帮妈妈唱了世上只有妈妈好的歌，抱了妈妈一下。妈妈的笑容，好温暖，我最喜欢妈妈笑，能化解心中不好的事情的笑容。但小妹不是很配合，那时真的好想揍她。前天弟弟拿了一包橡皮筋回来，不知为何就拿来射我了。我随手捡起他射的橡皮筋，会回攻他。他竟然继续攻击我。我捡起地上的橡皮筋，躲在椅子后等待机会回攻。哪知弟弟的射技很强，一直射中我的头。刚好就射中了我的脸，非常痛我不管三七二十一，极力反攻！追到他满屋子跑。最后他跑不赢我，“子弹”准备得也不比我快。后来，我在近距离瞄着他的头发射。他不甘示弱，又回来攻击我。这次他比较笨了点，朝我的身体射。我穿着衣服，当然不痛啦！但他就惨了。光着上半身，让我把手上的橡皮筋全部近距离发射在他身上。身上满是红色橡皮筋条纹的他，倒下投降。。我赢了！！哈

··第二当然是我的好好好好好朋友啦。子柔最近在面子书上写的都是负面的东西，不知是不是朋友方面出了问题。希望我还是能像以前一样帮他一起解决。但她身边好像有一些朋友能帮他解决了，我好像是没有用处了。好想念上次她尴尬时笑的样子，能让我想起就笑的笑容。凯毅过不久就去读书了。最近好像减肥成功了，有点变瘦了。他的疯狂笑声还在我脑海中。但那个能让我想起就疯狂的笑的笑声，最近也很少听到了。可能已经长大了，不会那么疯狂了，又傻又疯狂感觉也不在了。好想抱抱我的好好好朋友，再一起叙叙旧，再让我回温一下他们的笑容。接下来的不是好朋友，只是他们也有让我想起就笑，忘掉不愉快的事的笑容。佳欣！哈哈，没有这么叫过她的名。她有很很很很很久一段时间没回我信息了。很明显是在逃避我，我还需要经过另外一个人来知道他近来的情况。超超超想念她的，想念她羞涩的笑容，好迷人啊！希望我们能好转。世颖最近也没有信息我了。可能她真的不喜欢信息，可能忙着生活营的东西吧，或者忘了我吧。她迷人单纯的笑容，也留在我脑海里了。哈哈。。。我就是喜欢看你们笑。就是因为你们，所以我笑^^

···第三就是乐队了！下个月尾就要举行演奏会了，但队员们都不是很努力的练习。我就一直教，一直教，好累啊。但开心的是看到新生的进步，看到新生有心的样子，我也有心去教了。更开心的是教练让我去顾他们，那是一种肯定？？我希望是，因为我想…..暂时保密。哈哈，而且旧生也比较喜欢让我指挥他们。有了这些肯定，干起事情也比较起劲。我爱乐队，更爱音乐。音乐一丝买赖（music is my life）。但不好的是，因为一直教，自己的练习次数减少了。钢琴退步了，喇叭也退步了，希望能在最短的时间内进步。

就那么多咯。。bye~

一击即中三天两夜青年营

首先，先感谢我的好朋友-KY要请我去参加第一届一击即中2010年青年营。不然我想我都不会去参加了。还记得我前一天到营地时，在设备极差的房间里发现 最害怕的蟑螂（应该是“喉喷油”的臭鞋引来的！）。带着害怕又想回家的心情在房里过了一夜。

第一天，我跟着时间表的时间去报到。哪知就在哪儿等了超过两个小时。非常在意时间观念的我，当时真的很火大。 等到差不多人到齐后，工委才说去换报到时派发的营衣。又是一个迟交代的工委，两样我最讨厌的事竟然在第一天给我遇到！开幕过后，一堆不配合的营员让我头上 的火加了两公升的油。好在过后还不算倒霉，遇到了跟我同组的营员。在几分钟以内，我们认识了彼此，感情好不错（我觉得啦！可能他们只是演给我看，哈哈！开 玩笑！） 在全票通过的情况下，我当了第一组的队长。那时心里真的很感激，但不知为何他们会选我做队长。过后，在猜拳的情况下我们决定了我们的组名-蜡笔小新。（利 敏想的）再加上世颖想的口号，我们的组正式成立。还记得世豪很不赞同这个口号。喊完口号后，我发现我们还不错，因为还不是最差的。

吃过午餐后，我们开始了“你是哪位！”的游戏。就是要找到工委的的游戏，我第一个就抽到KY了。当然不到一分钟就找到了，还被玩弄了一番。因为世颖认识很 多工委，在他的帮助下，我们很快就找到每一个工委。其中，我们就被一位女工委刁难和折磨，蜡笔小新的队员应该全部都很讨厌她。就是应为她，我们的组拿了最 后一名！！但不错啦，队员们都玩得很疯狂，摆阵这个时候也慢慢的在我们队里浮现。（我在贪玩及激发士气的情况下喊出来的，哪知过后就有很多工委爱上了我们 的“摆阵”）过后就跳舞了，“穷开心”应该是6首歌里面最容易跳的一首。其他的歌也不错，都很好跳，尤其是YMCA^^ 晚餐后，我们完了杀手游戏，我杀了“喉喷油”和世颖。 我觉得很对不起世颖，因为是为了要证明给世豪看我是杀手才杀她的。世豪叫我杀你的，要怪就怪他哦！在夜间游戏开始前，我为了要确保女队员的安全，特地把她 们安排在中间，男队员分别在前面和后面。世颖就排在我后面，她突然喊了一下，还我吓了一跳。她还说叫我看我后面，我在想我眼睛都蒙了起来，怎么看呢？游戏 过后，我已经证明了我的安排是对的。我排第一个，全身是伤，还被撞到头。最后一个的世豪， 被第二组组长molest了很久，脚也受伤了。中间的队员都没事，我们的牺牲都是值得的。第一天完毕，上床睡觉。（其实我还想在玩哦！）

第二天，又没有时间观念，我又在那边等！运动跳舞后，就玩水了！！就在这个时候，我们的摆阵可以正式向全部人表演了。我最喜欢玩的就是跟freeman玩 的飞标了，我们大获全胜，都可以拿几桶大同的水泼他。但我都没泼到，我都让给我可爱的队员们泼。我只有在最后一次大战时，拿水泼自己的队员。对水敏感世颖 被水泼，又喊了。 她真的会敏感哦！手上都有一块块红斑。（哈哈，都不知道她是怎么冲凉的）经过工委透露，蜡笔小新好像拿了最多分,第二名离我们也有一定的距离。哈哈，好开 心！世豪好重，我刚到手发软。韦彰的成语也好差哦!鸡犬不宁给他说成鸡狗不如-.-”

过后就进行智力游戏，应为有营员不合作和一位女工委一直乱我们的关系，我们又输了！！营员的不合作，让我发火了！ （不是蜡笔小新成员）我找了凯毅发泄三分钟，心情也好多了。过后，就开始练舞了，蜡笔小新成员都很努力很配合。我们改了一点舞蹈也在舞蹈中加了摆阵，口 号。德政也有帮助我们，感谢你哦！很感谢你们相信我，帮助我和合作。晚餐后，我们就听乐团的表演了，虽然不是很特别，但他们尽力了。我也用尽我的力来喊 了。乐团表演过后，我们就是第一个表演跳舞的队伍。大家都表演到很好！（谁想要看我们的表演可以到我的facebook去查看。）过后，世颖说最后一晚 了，我们就尽量跳。过后，我真的发疯地跳了！好累啊！突然，听到我的大佬-KY吵架。我不管三七二十一的跑到楼上去，我相信以上次的速度，我可以去比赛赛 跑了。知道真相后，我松了一口气，但翠绮被吓哭了 ，她把眼泪滴在我身上，Freeman不停的把她的泪水往我身上抹，我好可怜啊！不知身上有没有她的鼻涕。哈哈！！过后，蜡笔小新们聚在一起聊天。晋杨当 天生日，我弹了生日歌，但他没听到！‘叹气’！谈完后，就去睡觉了。

第三天，玩了椅子和过网游戏。这个游戏里面，比较吃亏的当然是女子啦！！玩了智力游戏后，也差不多闭幕了。很多人都被叫地说出自己的感言。 一开始我真的很想讲，我在等待一个人举手后再举手，但很可惜都没人举。当我张开眼睛，看到很多人都张开眼睛时，更不敢讲了。当国俊说他要点名时，我坐得很 直，希望他能看到我，然后点我 。很可惜他没看到，我也不能完成我的心愿。闭幕完毕后，我又再次跳舞了！疯狂的跳。。说真的，如果还可以有相同的队员，一万次我都会去！！

（蜡笔小新组）
蜡笔小新成员：
队长 ：敦联 ～我自己没什么好说的咯！只想跟蜡笔小新的队员们说:”我爱你们!”最后一个晚上我独自一人听歌，没什么去跟你们讲话真的很不好意思哦！我虽然 有时自闭自闭这样，但有时又只是在思考还有听音乐放松心情。有什么不好还是得罪，请见谅。

副队长 ：世颖 ～哈哈，你好像很喜欢我称赞你哦！在这里也告诉全部人，我很高兴也很惊讶可以认识一个拿了straight A+ 朋友。其实除了喜欢吓我之外，你人也很好。每天都有一级棒的笑容在脸上 bling bling。没有你的话，我们的口号也没有那么出名！你也帮了我超级多的忙！感谢你。And the last sentence from the blue card I wrote,glad to know you ^^

副副队长 ：世豪 ～你跟我一起并肩作战，打败了无数个对手，虽然我们是“喉喷油”但谢谢还是要说的！你跟我说话最多了，但有时你会qigo，去找女生然后抛下我。但我不会 怪你啦！谁叫你在队里也有小小功劳。哈哈！开玩笑。。

副副副队长 ：利敏 ～ 你说的话很少哦！不可以这么害羞！以后在学校看到我也要 跟我打招呼哦！有空的话，要跟我说为什么会选我在做队长哦！是不是应为我很凶？还是我想坏人？哈哈，再联络哦！

副副副副队长 ：仪晴 ～利敏的话已经很少了，你的更少！哈哈，上次你哭好丑哦！还是笑比较好看。其实我是不想你用太多卫生纸，因为我的“喉喷油”忘记带毛巾去。他每次冲凉都是 用卫生纸的。哈哈！！不要忘记我哦！有空的话，也要跟我说为什么会选我在做队长哦！

小小小小小队员：韦彰 ～你也是一个很少跟我们讲话的。一直去找你的朋友，还有偷懒睡觉，但我不怪你啦。至少跟我们一起时你有认真。但还是要记得我 哦！

**『特别提醒大家记得要带毛巾去生活营，不然会像“喉喷油”一样，三天用卫生抹身体。也记得要带夹子去生活营，因为如果遇到像“喉喷油”一样睡觉会打呼 的人，架子会有帮助。最后，如果去生活营懒惰洗盘的话，记得要约我，世豪和“喉喷油”去，因为我们会用剪刀石头布来决定谁洗盘。』**

蜡笔小新表演之舞蹈歌名 ：穷开心
蜡笔小新表演之舞蹈 ：rearrange by 蜡笔小新队长
蜡笔小新摆阵口号：arrange by 副队长
蜡笔小新摆阵姿势：全蜡笔小新成员
特别感谢：德政
最后感谢蜡笔小新说有成员，感谢你们的合作..我们最棒！！！！！ 那时真的好想听到：“第一届一击即中2010年青年营带动唱冠军！蜡笔小新！！”

完毕。。

穷开心舞蹈
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EgvOscPwE3Y

I GOTTA FEELING

Everything returned!! Return to formerly. I will sleep at midnight and wake up at 11am morning. I don’t want this feeling. It’s bored! I want my life fill with my best friends and those musicians can let me strive. I really feel that life is nothing without my best friends, music and my family members. I love all of them.

But now my life sucks!! Everyone start doing their stuffs. Khai Yik working now and no one will make me joy and it’s extremely boring. Another hope going Australia, previously when I online I still can wait for Zhe Rou to chat, but now no more. Phone also didn’t bring along with me. I gotta feeling. Feel that I’m going to lost a best friend again. Not because the distance but because of the distance from heart. I don’t know will that heart will feel that or not. But I really afraid about that. It’s not easy to find a best friend that really I care. Hope no one bully Khai Yik and he can become slim. Hope Zhe Rou’s hostel very clean and don’t have cockroach and wont forget me this best friend. I really gotta feeling, hope my sixth sense not correct.

Now no more reasons for me to online and bring along my phone. I can concentrate to do the things I should do. But every time I will try online and survey how are them. Hope they know how my feel and give me some encourage to make me do my things better, include my instruments practice. I really need your encourages. I’ll try to done my jobs without rely on anyone include arrange my time myself.

Recently my students seem weird. I feel that they start to rebel against or maybe already grow up and have their way of thinks. If they also not rely me that’s good for them and I will be glad if them stronger than me. I wont ask them to hear to me every time. They also need to grow up.

I needa start practice soon, cannot be lazy, if not I will not improve and will disqualified from music road. I just can try my best, and cant expect too much, I admit that I’m a lazy guy. I heard that 群能补拙…But how if I have the talent if I lazy?? Must bad too.. So I must hardworking lur.. sigh

Already finish vent, need to learn how to hardworking now. Must fill my time with practice, practice and practice. Bye..

I MISS YOU

最近感觉到心里很空，是不是太忙了？（如果忙，我还会在这边写blog?）

可能凯毅不在我身边，一切感到不自在。

可能子柔要去读书了，心里真不是滋味。

我没心情到连钢琴都懒得练了，我是不是傻了？

一直在浪费时间，耽误自己的前途。

我太太太懒惰了，有没有药能治好？

还是有什么事情，什么人能帮我？

最后还是只有我自己。我真恨我自己！！

但最近就比较长练习我的小喇叭，

毕竟它才是我的前途的关键。

练习鼓的时间也慢慢消失了，

不懂还能不能打败我乐队的每个人。

但上次有一位percussion教练想要我当他的助手,

我真的感到很高兴，至少还有人要我。

肯定了我付出后得到的成果。

凯毅子柔，我真的好想你们啊，

我想要发泄,你们却不能帮我了。

还有HKone的朋友，不知你们怎么了。

你们不在了我都好不习惯啊！！

嗨。。还是一样，心里还是很空。

好想让人关心，让我关心的人关心。

好想练好水准，让关心我的人骄傲。

但现在我做不到，给我一点时间。

嗨。。又在浪费时间了。

又要让别人失望了。

对不起啊 T.T

All those people in My heart..

Erm.. Today I went for body check with my mom, I feel that my mom not really healthy. She got a lot of pressure and make her unhealthy. I feel so sad when saw her high blood pressure higher than before. She worry for a lot of things. She worry about his sis,her mom,her children and his husband. A lot of things to worry,I wanna help,but I cant. Hope I can grow up faster can help her.

Today my dad mad about his worker. He really mad today, If I'm the boss,i will fire the useless worker. But my dad is a kind guy, he gave the worker many chance and my dad know that he still have his family. I'm free this year and I'll discuss with them and might help them(include my mom)soon..

Yesterday I went buttorworth, but I cant find Khai Yik, so sad he cant come find me. S miss him and I mentioned about him 3 times in front my friend. Hope can meet him soon and have a good chat with him. Some people said i'm a gay again...lol

Today my mom fetched me went practice, I mentioned about Zhe Rou for 3 times too.. I said she's a tiny and refined girl who learn karate. I said she's a good president who tuning for her members and more... Hope she will in right mood soon. But no need to misunderstand la, I just treat my best friends better than other people.

My sister asked me whether she can lend my ladtop to watch movie or not. I declined and feel quite guilty,cause I'm not using ladtop that time. My brother argued with my youngest sis before sleep, my brother cried and I warned them not to produce any sound. Tomorrow I'm free and my siblings all in home, I might ask them to take breakfast together.

Last,wanna pray to god again. Just the same wish, hope all the peoples I care can live happily and healthy everyday. Last time I prayed everyday but sometime my wish didn't come true. Now hearing 'fall for you' song and recall someone. Erm..Anyway,hope she happy everyday too.

Best friends,I miss you..

I'm pity recently,

both of my best friends seem far away from me.
D major is in Butterworth and D minor is in Tambun Indah.
I can go find you all,but you all wanna find me or not??
Miss you all leh T.T Miss the time I spent with you two..

D major go Buttorworth work and
the time we meet will become less a lot.
He go so far and I don't know what should I do when i'm boring
and what can I do when i miss him.
He still got his gf to care about him,
he must miss his gf more than me.
Don't know how bout his work there?? Is it his work toilsome??
Will him bully by uncle aunty??
If have,tell me and I will complain till them very cham
and i will scratch their car.Sigh..faster come back T.T

D minor now didn't reply my message and didn't answer me call,
maybe still and sad mood cause I told her about her ex,
what her ex thinking about her.A big Sigh...
I should not tell her and I very scare I'll lost a best friend.
Maybe she angry me say that to her
and want to forget about me from her life.
This is my opinion and I hope I'm wrong,
i don't want to lost her in my life.
Hope she can tell me something that I can help,
If you need to vent or cry I can comfort you,
If you angry me,just scold me and don't ignore me T.T
I will feel very guilty and sad..

If you see this,please help me tell them I miss them,
but very paiseh cause I didnt write I miss you..
God please help me to bless them^^